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As I wake up this morning , the wind wafts , and the sun dances for me , my mien is that of a man that is sure . Indeed I am sure of myself , sure of my goals. My family would assent that I was not always like this. I aver that I have changed !! ecclesiatic affirmation !

I am no longer a penitent , I am no longer hindered by weights in my chest , this society will not teach me the significance of a sin. I am not imperious to the laws of my brothers , but they are my brothers , and they are humans. For this facts , I shall not shutter , my countenance shall display content .

Getting on track.

It has been a while since I have written anything on this blog.

Do you feel neglected Starwind Project? I hope not , because I will soon be adding new materials in your archives :)

It is my understanding that success is defined by goals settings , and time management to achieve them : So success here I come !!!!

Hey child. Stay wilder then the wind. And blow me in .

Reise Reise.

With everyday passing , I feel that I am getting stronger. My country is now destroyed , and my family is not doing so well ( We are making a lot of money , but emotionally not so good ). But I am still alive , and I am still breathing. If I can breathe , then that means that I can make things better for myself , and the people around me. I have the power to create . If I am God's image , then I should be able to find the power in me to help my loved ones.

although a smoke of despair as risen over my country , I see thing clearly now.

I know what I have to do.

I have been dating this girl for 3 month now. Every time that I see her , I just lose all the words that I have acquired on this earth. She literally leaves me speechless. She is smart, beautiful , sexy, and soooooo funny. She always listen to me , and she even laugh at my jokes ( even if they are not so funny some times haha) . I feel like she is also my best friend. We have such good times together ! Last time we were at the mall , and we laugh sooo much hahaha. We always have fun at spa as well. Last time at spa I forgot to bring sandals , she was not so happy. But we had good food together.

We always sleep peacefully with each other.

We also have fights some times, hahaha ...but Its ok , I love her.

We are completely naked with each other , we don't have to pretend or wear masks , we can be ourselves around each other. I don't know what the future hold for us. Actually there is a lot things that I do not know , but one thing that I am completely sure about , is that she is a special person in my heart , and what we have is also special.

Flu

10/11/2009

Today I find myself incapable of doing anything. I lay in bed like a corpse , rotting away. I have been infected with a nasty flu , and it seems to perpetuate itself...(sigh). I now understand that to some extent it is true that we need to suffer in order to enjoy pleasure. Now that I am in bed , I am looking outward and thinking to myself what I could be accomplishing , what I should be doing etc...
But the hard facts is that I am a lazy person , I get discourage very easily , and lose track of goals , and therefore hindering all sorts of momentum in my life that can propel me forward.

But all is not lost , I am still alive. When there is life , there is hope. I learned a couple of things these past few days. For example I love my mother , she took care of me. She made me dinner , and bought me medicine. I love her :)

Also , I have figureed out that by not pampering myself , I am actually inhibiting the few chances that I have to concentrate and study. So to wrap up.

This is what I have learned.
1- Love for mother only grows
2- Everyday do something I love , Do something that takes away the stress.
3- Don't pressure myself to do work


I have to still face reality , I know that things like finding a job , working my ass for school , and taking care of my responsibilities are very important.
BUT. I will not compromise my being. I am , who I am. I love to take my time , I love to read , write , day dream , watch movies , and sports ( on occasion hihihi) .

To conclude , I think that one should balance his life. Understand what makes him happy , and understand what needs to be done to sustain this happiness. I live this live to be happy , and dream. I will not stress myself over minuscule things that in the end do not even matter.

I love life.
(sometimes)

Until next time.
ciao.

Games of love.

Why do we fall in love?
Growing up , I always found myself being alone , my company was all I needed to survive.
Survival is an interesting word. I believe that we are hard wired , to live/mate with someone of the opposite sex in order to increase of chances of survival.

But the question that haunts , and plague my mind is not of the provenance/origins of love; But rather the mechanism of love.

the how? rather then the where ? interests me.

I watch myself attracted to women of similar background.

( to be continued )

Being in control.

" The gem cannot be polished without friction, nor man perfected without trials." I find this to be very true.

Looking at myself in the mirror , I am reminded how humans can be so vain. So I close my eyes , Ignore what I see , and smile.

" Shapes , Forms , Textures" , all these things are the measure of one's value in our society. I am not one of these people who do not appreciate beauty , I do ; but I believe that beauty should reflect something more deep. What exactly ? This , I do not know ; But I know that it exist , It is out there. This inner beauty that humans speak of. This inner beauty thing might might be bullshit , but if the way we are currently judging people correct , the kill me right now.

Sometimes I just feel like I am in a constant transient form , Sleeping while been awake. It is a very weird feeling. A feeling where you can't tell who is who. Friends from foes. What you are doing , and where you are heading. A state of total confusion.
Some days , I just feel like been disconnected from everything , and everyone.

But that is the challenge isn't it ? Keeping your sanity while been in this sort of matrix.
keeping your integrity while playing a dirty game ?